drama queen finis
Well. We put down Abby yesterday. And I cannot stop sorrowing. She was with me for nearly eleven years- my brother found her in a tree on the farm when the rest of us were off in Toronto. I was eighteen then and I'm twenty-eight now. She always chose to be around me, preferred my lap, my bedroom, Me. So when I married, of course she came along! And she was always my darling pet, very pretty, very floofy and quite funny. And now...she doesn't sit in my lap when I pull out my knitting. Nor will she watch from her perch on a kitchen chair when I'm cooking. Nor will she watch me write or try to lie on my paper while I write. She was constantly around me, she followed me through the house nearly all the time. She tended to be wherever I was and she picked up funny little habits and then dropped them every few months or so.
And she's gone! My brain is having a devil of a time parsing this. We chose to put her down partially for the expense and partially because of her terrible reaction to the vet's the first time a month ago. I mean...she stopped eating for awhile afterwards and I just wonder...well, anyway. It's over. Her suffering is over (because she was suffering. She was drinking constantly and had bad diarrhea) but...is it? What is on the other side of this life? I can only hope, so quietly, very quietly, that she doesn't disappear into nowhere and nothing. She doesn't become blackness, blankness, nothingness. That's she's off somewhere else without her ailing, dying body and that someday...I'll get to see her. Because we were friends. Excellent friends and connections like that just don't die. Not even with pets, I so quietly hope.
So here's to my tender little friend whom I loved and love so much. I wish you didn't have to go, Pud, and well...goodnight, sweet princess, and flights of angels sing thee to thy rest.
So sorry...
Catherine...I'm so sad to hear about poor Abby. Do take care, and I hope to see you soon...
I'm so sorry
We're so sorry. It's hard. Have been through it twice.
We love you.
mollie- thanks so much,
mollie- thanks so much, dear. It's really been sad. I'm pretty crushed. but on a small upswing, we do get to get kittens- which we always wanted to do but abby would certainly not allow.
cindi- I'm sure you're praying for us and thank you. :) Jeff and I both are having a hard time. It's like a big part of my life departed- I never really knew how much. Cleaning out her stuff is really hard and some of it I can't touch. but it's a bright thing to look forward to galloping, bursting with life kittens.
The biggest hugs sent your way...
Hi there. You don't know me, but I'm a friend of Jeff's.
I'm absolutely heart-broken for you guys and your loss. :( That must've been the hardest decision in the world to make. It is clear what Abby meant to you and how special she was.
It sounds like you have a lot to look forward to with your new forthcoming family members though, and that Abby will always have a place in your heart, with a decade of fond memories attached. With that kind of a bond, I don't think you need to worry -- you'll definitely get to see her again someday. :)
angie!
of course I know who you are! of course! Jeff's told me wonderful things about you and I look forward to meeting you some day.
And I want to thank you so much for such a sweet and thoughtful response. I have to admit- it made me cry a bit! But in a good way. :) I think...I think I will see her again one day. I'm really trying to see it that way. It's still tough though.
I will be mourning Abby for awhile but I have to admit...there's nothing so cheerful as frolicking kittens. Here's crossing fingers at kittens that are perfect for Jeff and myself. It can happen!
I am so terribly sorry!
I am so terribly sorry!
My condolences.
Hi there...another friend of Jeff's (and lifelong and inveterate cat lover), here. Just wanted to tell you I'm very sorry for your loss, and I know what you're going through.
Jeff tells me you've just adopted two new kittens, and I'm glad to hear it. Though it might seem callous, new friends do help assuage the grief of losing old ones, and it is very, very hard to have mixed emotions about a kitten. :)
Take care!
--- Ajax.
thank yous all around!
june- thank you so much. these animals!
ajax- you're right about kittens! I still miss Abby a ton but it is fun to play with these two and get to watch their personalities unfold. The girl (madeleine) is very clever and watches me a ton. The boy...not so clever but will purr whenever you pet him. I guess brains aren't everything! Thanks so much for your condolence. And yes! I know who you are too- of course!
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